have i fallen so hard?

when he's upset about something he tends to shut me out.

i can't stand it

yet when i confront about him and tell him it hurts me, he blows it off and calls it 'chilling'.


the fuck it isn't chilling.

maybe i'm overreacting. idk. i want to understand him but i feel as if there's some kind of barrier. maybe he's afraid to confide in me because of what girls are notorious for.

(though when he has told me things in the past he was amazed at how understanding i was.)

this, i could understand...but...shutting me out...

i've had enough of that from family before moving here.

i dont need it from a guy i could possibly love.


idk. im just fucking depressed.